My sad little world

My fault
Apparently everything is my fault. All the bullshit that is going on is becuz I couldn't bend over and take it like a bitch and I wouldn't bow down to the almighty family. So fuck it. I'm thru trying to be helpful, thru giving a shit. I'm nothing more than a girlfriend and I won't ever be anything else so why the fuck should I care? Why should I make plans on caring for a future together when its apparent that there is no future??! I was left alone and heartbroken when i needed him the most but ya know wat its ok becuz now I know where evryone stands, I fight for them and when I need someone to help fight for me, no one can be found so, again, fuck it. Shawna tossed me aside becuz I disaggreed with her, forbid me from talking to my nieces and told me I was no longer apart of her family oh Deb sure is, frankly if Shawna doesn't accept me and she does Deb then maybe Coty should be with Deb instead of me. I mean she has his son and the family loves her so fuck me right? Ive only tried my best to be honest and loving and you see where thats gotten me...fucking no where. Ive tried so fucking hard to be apart of a loving part of the family but becuz THIS WHORE couldn't keep her legs closed and shat out a baby, I MEAN NOTHING?! Wtf!!!!!? Where the fuck was she when Granny was in the hospital? Where was she when Coty was crying becuz he didnt want her in his life? Where the fuck was that stupid slut??? Oh I know where she was, She was giving a friend HEAD while playing Guitar Hero, drunk as shit, and didnt even hear her CHILDREN SCREAMING for her the next moring when the friend snuck out the back door. So fuck them all of them ya'll want her then fucking have her Im thru with all of you. Peace Im out!

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